Yeah so It's Friday. Hurrah! I feel like shit because once again I have placed my needs, scratch that, wants over Zeen's. I futzed with my cash & now I'm in the hole. Hello hole, nice to see you again. Except not. Zeen is pissed at me because I've been spending too much and it's affecting him too. I hate when he gets mad at me. I just feel so small. I don't know what is wrong with me. I get some loot and it's like it burns so quickly. I turn around and there's none left.

Shit. I have to get a hold of myself. I'm nearly 30 years old. I'm getting too old to just give in to whatever indulgence tickles my fancy. That goes for food too. I have to do better. That's all there is to it. I just have to.

Later.