A Common Statistic

Domestic Abuse
Endangering the welfare of a child
Possessing an illegal weapon
Possession with the intent to distribute
Drug Possession

I'm not just listing some random illegal things. I'm listing the counts against my younger brother. A young man that I no longer know. He's a liar, a cheater, a manipulator, a weed head, a deadbeat parent, and an abuser of women.

All those things add up to a lot of time in jail. In Arizona of all places. Not like it matters where. All those things mean that my mother will spend her mother's day bailing him out of another jam that he willingly placed himself in. I told her that if there was anytime that enabling him should cease, this is it. But she won't listen. This is her son I'm talking about and what would people think? Because in the end that's the thing that means the most. Not having folk talk about her. I've excepted that ages ago.

I can't help but wonder if she'd jump in like this for me, who was not enabled by her in any way. But then, I'm not a fucking idiot so I'd never be in my brother's place. I feel foolish for thinking that the fact that he has a child of his own would make him more responsible and less stupid. Really, what was I thinking? If it isn't gotten easily, he doesn't want it. So just like other Black boys of his generation, he is a common statistic. A punk ass kid who thinks hoein around on his girl makes him a man. A lazy bum who thinks it's perfectly fine to do the minimum and let his girl take the weight. A wretched excuse for a human who would hit the mother of his child while she is holding him.

When my mother finally felt the need to tell me what was going on my response was go see about the child. When she brought up my brother's plight my response was fuck it (in my head I said and fuck him too). I'm washing my hands of him.

Does it make me cold and unfeeling? I say no. I am fed up and sick of looking like a fool. He has succeeded in fucking up his life. Well done.


He may as well be dead to me.

Later............