The worst four words in the english language. Zeen said them to me yesterday. He called me out for being a non-money saving slacker. He's right on all counts. My wedding savings is woefully nearly non-existant and as of this Thursday we're down to the wire. He basically said that if I don't come up off my half of the loot, there would be no wedding.
The word ever floated over the whole thing but was never said. So now I'm hustling. Because I don't know how to do anything the easy way. Because I'm careless and selfish. Because I don't deserve the man I'm with. And he knows it too.
My irresponsibility rating is off the charts and I know it. I have to make good on my end because I promised I would.
I don't want to lose the best thing to ever happen to me. I must do better. BE better.
I feel like a pile of shit on a blazing hot sidewalk. So much so that I can’t bring myself to speak to him or look into his eyes. Off to grind up some cash legally (or illegally at this point)
Later........
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